Its not fair

Yesterday while going home after college dad stopped at a ‘tharbuza’ bandi (watermelon). He asked me to buy one. I picked one, asked him the price and paid him. I did not bargain as always. Dad scolded me as always. Said they always charge much more than its worth, so we should always bargain. He’s been telling me this since I was kid. I know, they charge more but I never felt like bargaining with those poor vegetable and fruit vendors. I could never figure out why people always bargain with those poor people for a couple of bucks while they willingly spend hundreds, thousands, even lacks on some items which are heavily over priced. They don’t mind making the rich, richer. Why don’t they bargain with them? Why do they bargain with the poor? Why can’t they let the poor vendors earn a few bucks more? Why not make their life a little brighter? Why not put a smile on their faces? Why not?
When I see some poor people doing menial work, I wonder how unfair the world is. It is these people who work the hardest, who toil day-in and day-out under the hot sun, sometimes under the hazardous conditions, but still get paid the lowest. While people like us get paid high salaries, get to work in A/C rooms with all provisions though we toil the least compared to them. Not fair.

I turn 24

I turn 24 today. My small and slender body frame doesn’t suggest it. But a closer look at my face reveals the fact. My face has lost its freshness. It looks worn-out and tired. When u r a kid all u want, is to grow-up and when u do, u wish, u didn’t. A few years ago I would have been excited about my Birthday. But over the past few years the enthusiasm has died down. I don’t know the reason why. May be coz I realized that I am getting older, life’s not as fun as it used to be, its becoming more complicated, with more responsibilities, more problems.
Its not just me, even my family is not excited about the day. My mom( and her kin) are worried that I am 24 and not yet married. My mama wished me on the phone and asked my age.(he was disappointed to hear that I already completed 24yrs on this earth). My dad would have been more relaxed if I got a job( he is worried about his unemployment these days). My brother thinks that I am a big burden in the house eating freely( though I eat only a fraction of what he eats) wasting money while I should be earning it. I can’t help thinking about what I have achieved in these past 24 years. Nothing.
And the fact that I am 50 days older than my bf doesn’t make me happy either. On this very day, 24 years ago, I was alive and kicking in this world while he was still in his mom’s womb getting his finishing touches. Oh gosh! I am going to grow old before he does. I am gonna get wrinkles, loose my teeth, get a hunch back before he does. And he is going to sing ‘mujhe buddi milgai, haye ram mujhe buddi milgayi’. How depressing?

Balance Sheet

Balance sheet of Keerthana Reddy Chamakura as on 31st December 2004.

Liabilities Assets

Capital, Reserves n surplus: Fixed Assets:
Wild n Wacky Witty
Temperamental Sweet Tempered
Self Destructive Creative
Crazy Cool
Confidence on lower side Clever
Not a Dream Chaser Dreamer
Haughty Sensitive

Current liabilities: Current Assets:
Dandruff Great hair
Short sight Nice eyes
Sinusitis Sexy nose
Ugly lips Cute Smile
Short n Slender body frame Photogenic face

Total: Tolerable Total: Adorable


The Balance sheet of this Company does not tally. There is something very amiss with Keerthana Reddy Chamakura.

Promise

Promise me, My Love,u will care
And will always be there

To share my sorrows and smiles
To hold my hand when we walk for miles

To carry me when I am tired
To laugh at me when I am wiered

To give me a helping hand when I cook
To lift me up when I am down on my luck

Promise me, My Love, u will still care
And will always be there

To kiss me goodnight
To forgive me when I fight

To tickle me when I am sad
To hug me tight when I cry like mad

To shade me from sun and rain
To protect me from hurt and pain

My Love,Promise me
U will always love me

Even when I have cold
Even when I grow old

Even when I wake up a little late
Even when I dont feel so great

My Love,Promise me
U will always love me

Even when I am lazy
Even when I look clumsy

Even when I act bossy
Even if I go a bit crazy

Even if I cry
And until I die

My love, Promise me
U will love me ten to the power of crore
Or just as much as I love U, if not more!

Jassi turns into Pretty Woman

The other day I was waiting in a busstop for my friend. She was late as usual. While I was standing there couple of guys went past, staring at me. I glanced at them and ignored. But it didn’t stop with those couple of guys. Every guy that went past me (including the ones at the busstop) just kept staring at me with their heads turned almost backward. Some even gave me a smile. I was getting extremely irritated. This scene continued for an hour as I kept waiting for my friend. I began to wonder to wonder if something was wrong with my attire (I was wearing a simple cotton kurtha), or if something was on my face, or if my hair was haywire. I couldn’t figure it out. Finally when my friend arrived (after more than an hours wait), I took out my anger on her. Then I explained the scene to her and asked her what was wrong with me. She said there was nothing wrong and that I looked great. Really great. I was surprised. I blushed a little. Well, one may say what’s there to be surprised. Well, it is surprising to a girl who’s been a tomboy all her life, whom guys never looked twice. Yes, it is surprising.

Growing up as an adolescent girl I hid behind my thick sodabuddi glasses (u know, the ‘ Jassi’ look). So guys never looked at me, even if they did they totally ignored me. It never bothered me at all. Being a tomboy, though I had more boyfriends than girlfriends, I never liked unwanted attention from them or being in the spotlight. I preferred being unnoticed. When I entered college, I had to get rid of my glasses but I chopped off my hair too. So I looked like a total tomboy. Some guys found me cute initially coz I looked like a little girl. This only drove me to be even more tomboyish. After graduating from college I began to grow back my hair mainly because I couldn’t tolerate any more, people asking me “Which class are you studying in? “ (assuming me to be a school girl). So my hair (‘my weapon’ as my friend Adi once quoted it) gives me this new look of a pretty girl who can turn heads almost 180 degrees.

Now there is a part of me which is not used it and scared of the unwanted attention. And then there is the other, which likes this change. It blushes.

The 'A' Factor

According to alphabetology(invented by me, a la numerology) my luckiest alphabet is 'A'.It is really amazing how the names of all the people close to me start with the alphabet 'A'. Among my dozens of cousins the two closest to me are A for Anu(Anupama) and A for Ashu(Ashwin).The 'A' factor can also be predominantly seen in allmost all my close friends's names.Like A for Abhi(Abhilash), A for Anil(just Anil), A for Anup(Anoop), A for Arry(Arvind) and A for Adi(Aditya). And guess what! Even my boyfreind's name starts with A. Its A for A..... aha asha dosa appadam.im not going to tell u.ha ha ha

God and Devil

Everyone belives that God made Man. But I believe that Man made God. I believe like most of the other things, God is also one of Man's greatest & most popular inventions.I know, I'll find very few takers in this world for these statments. But everyone is entitled to his or her opinion. I dont believe in existence of any God in any form, human or amorphus. God is an illusion created by Man. God is the personification of a Perfect Man, a Man who's got all the good in the world and not even a single grain of bad in him. I dont believe there ever existed,or exists or will ever exist such a Perfect Man. There doesnt exist a totally imperfect Man either who can be termed Devil. Then one may say that God or Devil is'nt in any form but there exists some superpower and some evil power. Yes, there exist some mysteries in the universe which science and humans have unable to uncover. I believe there exist reasons and explanations for every event, for everything(except for love) as to why they happen. Man has been able to uncover most of them but the ones he's been unable to, he has assumed it to be done by God or Devil.
I believe there exists a bit of God(good) and bit of Devil(evil) in all of us. I am not afraid of any invisible Ghosts. I am afraid of humans whose hearts are filled with evil. I have no reverence for any invisible God.I have great reverence towards persons, who see good in their fellow humans and treat them with respect. I would respect a Man who donates 10 bucks to charity than a fool who donates a diamond necklace to an idol of stone. God was a nice concept when it was invented but over thousands of years its essence has been lost. In todays world, like everything else, God too has been made materialistic.